A Day Before the Summer Vacation

A Day Before the Summer Vacation

You were so close,
Yet so far for me to reach.
You saw me when you glanced behind;
I was there sitting beneath the acacia tree,
As I clutch my emotions for me not to cave in.

The sands in the hourglass were
Rapidly falling, time was melting in
The hotness of summer.

The lights of the cameras were flashing,
They were smiling, busy taking picture of
Themselves for the memories no to fade
In oblivion. In a day, when sorrow and
Bliss conjoined, I was there sitting
Not knowing what to do.

The moment was heartfelt, I had seen
The bliss in your glossy eyes.

I was going to approach you to tell
You my farewell message, but my legs
Were frozen because of fear; I couldn’t
Move at that time.

The walls between us was too enormous
For me to vanquish; I don’t want
To vanish.

I had waited until sunset and I saw
Your shadow fade in the immense
Darkness of the night and I was there,
Still sitting beneath the acacia tree,
Still staring at the place where your shadow fade.

All I had to say was goodbye,
My eyes shouted it but wasn’t loud
Enough for you to hear my eyes’ trembling
Voice of saying goodbye. My dread
To talk to you tied my tongue; I
Couldn’t say a word, not even the single
Word goodbye, It was the last time,
Did I push myself too hard? Or I didn’t
Push at all?

It was the last time,
I didn’t take my chances
While the sun’s dazzling light
Shines through my skin to my
Rotting flesh.

It was the last time,
A now-or-never moment.
The end of everything,
The start of a new beginning.
I’m still waiting for you to
Hear the words I never had the
Chance to tell.
I know farewells aren’t forever,
But heartache is what I suffer,
When you were there and all I could
Do was to stare.